Monday, July 31, 2006
Guilt, Shame and Purging
A quick post for all you panty fanatics out there. The panty of the day is this lovely pale pink nylon and lace Fredricks of Hollywood frilly full back. They feature a wide lace trim all around the leg and waist openings and a smooth nylon panel in back. The front is kind of hard to see in the pic, but is a very sexy and thin width swath of see through lace. The cut is somewhat low on the hips, but still covering the butt area and following the curves nicely. These are style RN 73120 and I'm pretty sure they're no longer available. I picked these up a number of years ago perhaps in the late 90's or early 2000's. These are yet another example of a really cute panty that was made for a limited time only. Hope you like them!
I have felt the shame and guilt that plagues the panty lover community. Many times I have said to myself that I must rid myself of this shameful behavior. I have come close many times to purging my collection, but I never went through with it. This is a pervasive thought that comes and goes like a tide hitting the beach, over and over again. The truth is that I really enjoy panties and although a bit strange, I really shouldn't feel bad about it. At least I can say that my fetish makes me happy without harming anyone.
Panties are like a drug to me sometimes, where I almost feel compelled to buy them, but I am able to resist, so I guess it's not a true addiction. I do have some self control over it. Luckily for us panty people, our addiction isn't really illegal. You can't go to a department store and buy crack or meth! I wonder if the ladies in the lingerie department at the store suspect that the panties I buy are for myself. They are usually very nice to me and I think they are often turned on by the fact that I'm buying panties. I once asked the sales girl if the panties could be returned if my girlfriend didn't like them because she might get mad at me, and the girl looked at me with a shocked face and said "Why would she do that?", as if to say, she should be jumping for joy that her man is buying panties for her. I sometimes go to the mall or store specifically to look at panties. That's when I feel a strange rush when I'm there. My heart beats faster and I feel flushed with heat. The only way I can overcome the urge to buy is to remind myself that I already have too many panties in my collection and I can't really spend the money right now anyway. That seems to be working for me. I still enjoy my collection as I have lots of different ones. If I ever do break down and buy some, my rule to myself is that they must be unique in some way and I only allow myself to buy one pair of any style, even if they look really sexy in more than one color.
Well, that's enough rambling for today. Hope you all enjoyed today's panty talk!